Divine Plan

There are many things I have learned about myself over the years:

* I am an introvert. (though I enjoy socializing and can hold my own in social settings)
* I get bored with routine, but I need structure. 
* I still enjoy using my imagination.
* I am not good at concentrating, unless it's something that interests me.
* I am a visual learner.
* I finally know what I want to be when I grow up!

   
   The last one on that list is the latest and greatest for me. I am not an organized person. I have a great ability to see the whole picture and become extremely overwhelmed, which just frustrates me and shuts me down. Last week I finished something very important to me, and I feel like my mind has been "unblocked". I feel calm and organized, like my whole life just became aligned. For the first time in my life I realized I found something that I'm kind of good at, and something I truly enjoy. This time in my life is a great time to start out and see what can become of it. The best part? It fits all those above mentioned characteristics. I don't believe in fate, but I do believe in a divine plan and I truly believe I was designed exactly for this time and exactly for this purpose. I have found focus and excitement and I am determined to pursue this to whatever degree He has planned. 

What do I want to be when I grow up? 
  A writer.  
 
What makes me so sure this is His plan? 
  The freedom and liberty that wells from within while I write, even in the times I struggle to push on. That liberation and freedom are my fuel to continue, even if I end up rewriting it the next day. I know that drive is not of myself, it's not my power or self-discipline, it's completely His spirit. That's how I know.

The heart is free where the Spirit of the Lord is. The Lord is the Spirit.- 2 Corinthians 3:17

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