Mountain Top
Tired isn't the word to describe my energy level.. but despite that, I am feeling so thankful today! There's such a joy in our house as we prep for and anticipate becoming a family of 4. This joy is a bit more special for us, as we weren't sure we would ever experience parenthood in this way again. It's been an interesting ride these past 7 years as a single child family. We have walked through valleys and stood on mountain tops. We have struggled through finances, frustration, hard changes and the challenge of parenting. But through it all we have grown together. We have created memories. We have become conquerors.
About 3 years ago, we decided to expand our family. Medical issues arose, and we were facing a reality of never bearing a biological child again. We were willing to accept that on the outside, but that desire was still burning in both of our hearts. We began to lose hope, and started considering adoption. (Which may still happen for us in the future). Every time we went to take that next step further, it's like God held out His hand in front of us saying "wait." We entered in to a very busy season in our lives, and pregnancy was the furthest thing from our minds as it was just put on the back burner. So when I spit out my lunch one day because it grossed me out, I only laughed and didn't pay any attention. It wasn't until a week or so later we finally bought a test, which we were both reluctant to buy because of the continuous disappointment of a negative result and wasted money. I was in disbelief when after 2 minutes had passed there it was, a plus sign! I didn't cry, I didn't laugh. It caught me so completely off guard that I just couldn't respond. I quietly came out of the bathroom and placed the test on Jay's laptop, he looked down and had the same confused reaction I did. Then we both started to crack up.
It's been a very eventful pregnancy, nothing like the almost book-perfect one I had with Kai. But I would do it again 100 times over! As we await another precious baby boy, we can't help but bask in the joy, but the one thing we don't want to do is stop thanking and praising our God for the beautiful blessings He has given us. Some times when you're on that mountain top, it's so easy to forget the struggles that got you there. We shouldn't dwell on them, but remembering the blessings that came with each step. Never forgetting the hand the guided us through the rocky climb. This year has been a long one with lots of trials, but our God has remained so faithful and it has truly been a year of Thanksgiving for us! Words cannot express how much we are looking forward to this next chapter, but right now is just that moment of perfect peace and joy. The moment that make all the hard times worth it. Thank you Lord for the blessings you have laid upon us, You are SO GOOD!
I feel like this was meant for someone to read. Maybe not today, or tomorrow.. but if you're reading this and are in that deep valley, remember to keep Him the center of your life. You're not alone. Keep pushing through those rocky hillsides. Keep reaching for His hand and someday soon, you too will reach that mountain top with victory and thanksgiving!! Whoever you are, I'm praying for you.
"For the Lord is a great God, and a great King above all gods. The deep places of the earth are in His hand. And the tops of the mountains belong to Him. The sea is His, for He made it. And His hands made the dry land."- Psalm 95:3-5
About 3 years ago, we decided to expand our family. Medical issues arose, and we were facing a reality of never bearing a biological child again. We were willing to accept that on the outside, but that desire was still burning in both of our hearts. We began to lose hope, and started considering adoption. (Which may still happen for us in the future). Every time we went to take that next step further, it's like God held out His hand in front of us saying "wait." We entered in to a very busy season in our lives, and pregnancy was the furthest thing from our minds as it was just put on the back burner. So when I spit out my lunch one day because it grossed me out, I only laughed and didn't pay any attention. It wasn't until a week or so later we finally bought a test, which we were both reluctant to buy because of the continuous disappointment of a negative result and wasted money. I was in disbelief when after 2 minutes had passed there it was, a plus sign! I didn't cry, I didn't laugh. It caught me so completely off guard that I just couldn't respond. I quietly came out of the bathroom and placed the test on Jay's laptop, he looked down and had the same confused reaction I did. Then we both started to crack up.
It's been a very eventful pregnancy, nothing like the almost book-perfect one I had with Kai. But I would do it again 100 times over! As we await another precious baby boy, we can't help but bask in the joy, but the one thing we don't want to do is stop thanking and praising our God for the beautiful blessings He has given us. Some times when you're on that mountain top, it's so easy to forget the struggles that got you there. We shouldn't dwell on them, but remembering the blessings that came with each step. Never forgetting the hand the guided us through the rocky climb. This year has been a long one with lots of trials, but our God has remained so faithful and it has truly been a year of Thanksgiving for us! Words cannot express how much we are looking forward to this next chapter, but right now is just that moment of perfect peace and joy. The moment that make all the hard times worth it. Thank you Lord for the blessings you have laid upon us, You are SO GOOD!
I feel like this was meant for someone to read. Maybe not today, or tomorrow.. but if you're reading this and are in that deep valley, remember to keep Him the center of your life. You're not alone. Keep pushing through those rocky hillsides. Keep reaching for His hand and someday soon, you too will reach that mountain top with victory and thanksgiving!! Whoever you are, I'm praying for you.
"For the Lord is a great God, and a great King above all gods. The deep places of the earth are in His hand. And the tops of the mountains belong to Him. The sea is His, for He made it. And His hands made the dry land."- Psalm 95:3-5
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