A Year Goes By
Surely God is my help; the Lord is the one who sustains me.- Psalm 54:3 This is week our baby boy turns one! I remember looking back over Kai's first year with such joy and peace. It's hard to do this with Theo. I don't think I realized just how hard until we began planning his birthday party. It makes me feel guilty. His birth is something I'm so grateful for, but wish I could forget at the same time. I'm not one who reacts to things as they're happening, emotionally. I shut down and just get through them. So lately I find myself reliving the smells, the sounds and the anxieties of his first week of life. I have never been someone to dwell on anything, I take things in stride and focus on the positive and move on. But I'll admit, this one is hard. It's the feeling of this time of year, the weather and atmosphere. Anytime I've thought back to his first days of life, I have only focused on the day he came home. The days before that are a blur